First Outdoor Booty Camp!

And it was super tough! We're lucky (or unlucky...) enough that the park we're in has a big-ass hill. We ran up it. Several times. Once on all fours. It was BRUTAL! Even worse than running up was running back down. It was really steep and kind of scary. But it's all about getting out of your comfort zone, right??

We also didn't have music during our class, thanks to yours truly. Yep. I stepped on the stereo cable right before class (in my defense, I was walking next to the instructor and the cord was trailing on the ground) and broke it. Oops!

I can tell the next four weeks are going to be tough. :)

In other news, I have to confess: I have not been on-plan the past couple of days. I don't want to make excuses, but I will anyway (hehe). I've been feeling emotional lately and trying to deal with various stressors that all seemed to hit me at the same time. Luckily, I'm going to the cottage tomorrow for some much needed r & r! I plan to rejuvenate (and exercise!) and get back to my cheery, motivated self. I have finished marking my exams, submitted the grades, and tied up all the loose ends (I think!).

I won't be able to make my meeting this weekend either (maybe subconsciously this was contributing to going off-track - knowing I'm not weighing in on Saturday. I would just go to another meeting, but there don't seem to be any where I'll be). This will be the very first meeting I've missed since I joined in November, and I'm sad that my perfect streak has to end!

But I will go BACK on plan. I do NOT want to "lose" the 10% milestone I worked so hard for (will the Weight Watchers police come take my key ring away???), so I will suck it up and stick with the program!

When I got my new 3-month tracker a couple of weeks ago, you may recall that I vowed to be on plan for 10 of those 12 weeks. I can still easily reach that goal!! I was feeling like a failure, but I'm picking myself back up again. Truly, the only reason I'm no longer this girl is because I will never give up, despite the inevitable setbacks:

I will have very limited internet while out of town, so I will be catching up with you all on Sunday when I return! Enjoy the rest of your week & weekend!

Quick Check-In

I wanted to write a quick post, mostly for myself to remember how proud I am at this moment.

Remember how easy everything was on Sunday? Oh my, how things can change. ;)

Somehow, on Monday, I ate 29 over my daily points (of 25). Eep! Luckily, I had the weekly points to account for it. I don't even know how it happened! Just some Doritos here, some toast there, and BAM. 29 points in the hole.

So, fine. No big deal. I'll just watch it for the rest of the week, right?

Well. I keep chocolates in my desk at work for days that I want to bribe my students. A very dumb place for them, because I open my drawer to get something out, and I see them. Today was not a high-willpower kind of day (I got very little sleep last night and I've got a few things on my mind - excuses, excuses!), so I ate 9 plain chocolates, and 3 peanut butter ones!

So why am I proud? Well, I kept track while I ate them, and counted up all the points when I got home. I was on the verge (and may have started) going nuts eating everything in my cupboard, but somehow I convinced myself to do the 30 Day Shred Level 3. (Because it's only 20 minutes, I usually can't excuse my way out of it).

So now I'm feeling shredded by Jillian, and no longer on the verge of a crazy binge. Working out made me crave some healthy food, rather than junk, and I am still feeling really good about this week.

It just goes to show that I can avoid going completely over the top after one (or two) small bouts of uncontrollable eating! The damage done was not that bad, and my week is NOT shot to hell!

Tonight I am trying my first recipe from Eat, Shrink, and Be Merry: Mexican lasagna. I will let you know how it goes!

Weigh-In

Let's not talk about the fact that I gained 4.2 pounds at my weigh-in on Saturday, after going over my points (or not tracking at all) on most days last week.

Let's not talk about the greek food, the baklava, the pizza, the chicken strip-things, and the buttery popcorn I ate on Saturday, or that I was really sick to my stomach at around 4 am on Sunday (I really can't put it away like I used to!).

Let's not talk about the entire container of Ben and Jerry's chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream that I just ate in one sitting (or the huge veal and pancetta burger and fries I had for lunch today).

Let's not talk about how nervous I am about weighing in this coming Saturday and being up again, or the fact that I have not been consistent for months now, or how scared I am that I won't get my groove back.

Let's talk about how I will try again tomorrow. Because I have no other choice.

Self Sabotage

Hello! I hope everyone is having a happy Tuesday :)

I had a not-so-happy Sunday & Monday... I stopped tracking Sunday night, and did not track yesterday either. It was bad, folks. Like, McDonald's bad. Like, McDonald's TWICE bad. Now, I definitely think that it's totally fine to have treats & junk food once in awhile, and my diet will always include the occasional trip to McDonald's! That's why I like weight watchers--it's possible to do things like that.

BUT going way overboard, so that I don't even enjoy the food, and I feel sick to my stomach, is not something I should really do. It's just punishing myself for... what? Being successful?

I had such a good week last week. I know that two days of bad eating does not undo all of my progress, but I'm so sick of having one good week, one bad week, one good week, two bad weeks, etc. I've been hovering around this weight for ages now... and I finally started to push past it... and now this.

Obviously, it's a good thing that last week's meeting topic was emotional eating! It didn't help me out yesterday, but I'm going to start thinking about strategies for next time (oh, and there will be a next time).

I'm back on plan TODAY. I had some delicious steel cut oats & peanut butter for breakfast, and I have Booty Camp tonight. I will drink water like there's no tomorrow, and try to squeeze in a workout on Wednesday. And I think it's time for a green smoothie...